i don't like to watch the tele,
especially the news.
i'd rather play football then
watch it monday night.
i like a good film now and again,
mostly for background noise.
there are times i feel so lazy,
i can hardly move a muscle.
there are days i cannot be stopped,
when i decide to go.
i get so tired at the end of a day,
my eyes will cross, my toes cry out
"stop! and let me be!"
my heart beats loudly in my ears,
like quasimodo found a new home
i don't like to sit around and stare
my walls are white and plain
but that is not what bothers me
i like them white it looks so clean
it's sitting, wondering
"how else will i fill my time?"
i don't need people every moment of my day
in fact i'd rather shoot my toe,
with a gun and buck shot
blow it clean away
i only do what i must
because i know it's right
however
without my right toe
i'd be watching football
every monday night
ej
26 September 2007
12 September 2007
Making some changes
I'm always busy. If there is one thing people know about me...I'm always busy. Lately, I feel the need to take it down a notch. For years, people tell me I do too much. I think others, do too little. We have so much time in the day, where do we spend it? However, as of late, I have been so exhausted, that can't be a good thing. Tired is one thing, but exhausted? That's a whole other story! So, I am preparing to take the necessary steps to change what I am doing.
I want to make a list of things I want to focus on for the next month. I figure if I take it one month at a time, I will get all the things I want to get done...done! It's hard deciding what to cut out of the schedule...so many fun and worthwhile activities to choose from. We'll see how it goes!
ej
I want to make a list of things I want to focus on for the next month. I figure if I take it one month at a time, I will get all the things I want to get done...done! It's hard deciding what to cut out of the schedule...so many fun and worthwhile activities to choose from. We'll see how it goes!
ej
28 August 2007
Plans for Labor Day
Sigh...I am going to be traveling this weekend. Not one of my favorite things to do, well, I guess it's not that I don't like to travel, but traveling in a car with a bunch of people I'd rather not be around is not high on my list of things to do. I am doing my best to be excited about the weekend, and not get too bummed about the drive. It's gonna be great, but I am working on being prepared for the car experience. By the end of the weekend, I will have spent an entire day driving with people that drive me absolutely bananas! I'm charging the Ipod, buying a cheap Discman and plenty of batteries! I am even preparing many different CD mixes. Holy smokes! I wish I had my portable DVD player still! For the first time in a year or so, I am missing that little guy. It's gonna be great....it's gonna be great! {deep breath} It's gonna be great!
ej
ej
20 July 2007
Full Week
My weekend started last Thursday afternoon and didn't stop until I arrived at work Tuesday morning. I requested a day off about a month ago, as I was in dire need of a "chill day." I was able to work out a deal with my friends, Jamie and Mike, and they went on a day date so that I could baby-sit their 1 year old baby girl, Riley! It was so much fun! Ever since she started walking, we have been able to play so many more games. I love kids!
Friday night we went to Rib Night in Los Gatos, and per usual, they were excellent. I didn't have any ribs, but everyone else enjoyed them. We had four "rookies" in our group this month and they all finished their ribs off with ease. There was a lot of excitement at rib night, as Heather won two of the raffle prizes, but allowed me to take a break from rubbing shoulders to collect one of the prizes. She won a camping chair and a set of pasta bowls. She donated the pasta bowls to my new apartment and me! So sweet of her! Now the greatest moment of the evening was the 50/50 raffle. In case you don't know what that is I will give a brief explanation. People buy a number of tickets, and after the money is collected, 50% goes to the Lodge for whatever "lodge improvement" project they are needing, and 50% goes to the ticket holder! I decided that after 7 years of attending rib night, I could spare ten bucks to help them make some renovations. Just before he read the winning ticket number aloud, I shouted out to my buddy on the stage, "Oh, oh! Mama needs a new car! Oh, yeah!" As he read the final digit of the winning ticket I shouted in disbelief, "Shut up!" Everyone, including my friends at the table started laughing at me! Dude! I totally won $125!!! It was so great! Of course, I put on a little show by doing a little victory dance as I collected my winnings. Even now, I am in a little bit of disbelief.
After Rib Night, Dave, Heather, and I (after much deliberation), decided to meet up with some people for karaoke at the Almaden Lounge. The bar scene is not really my cup of tea, but we went at any rate. Dave was being a baby about the whole thing, which kind of worked out well for me. I didn't really want to be there long, but was making the best of it. He finally gave me the "look" and I knew we were on our way out! Woo hoo! I knew he wanted to go see the new Harry Potter. He had made such a fuss about it earlier in the evening, so when he said, "I wonder if I could catch a midnight showing of Harry Potter? I'll watch it by myself!" I knew he was gonna go see it, and of course I said I'd go with him. He's such a baby sometimes! It was 2345 when he said that and we called around and found a midnight and midnight-thirty showing in Santa Clara. Of course, with his lead foot, we made it to the midnight showing and even were able to enjoy a few previews. I didn't get home until nearly 0300 and I was wiped out.
Saturday was extremely busy. I cooked an Indian dish for the Box Lunch activity for church, but ran late because of a few technical issues, one being the misplacement of my keys. I ended up going and having a chill time with the people that attended. Most of the day I kept busy doing things around the apartment and can't remember what I did in the evening, which means it obviously wasn't very memorable.
I love living in my apartment! It's been so great having my own place, have I already said that? I have been enjoying going through boxes and finding these I haven't seen in a few years! I have been spending a fair amount of time purging all the excess "junk" I have accumulated over the past few moves. When the moves are rushed, I find that I acquire much more junk than if I had packed systematically. This whole week has been a week of getting things done around the new homestead.
On Tuesday, my friend Michelle came by to help me come up with a new floor plan. I'm pretty left-brained and I wanted to have a little more style in my place, so I called in the Calvary. It's a little abstract, but I like it. I wouldn't have come up with that kind of layout (again, really left-brained), but it's going to work for now. I need to make or buy a beanbag chair or something like that. OOHHH! If those silly "Love Sacks" were less expensive, that would be a lovely addition to the studio apartment life. I think apartment complexes that feature Studio apartment living, should include a "Love Sack" in each dwelling. That way, each person when they move in gets to have one! Heh! Oh yeah!
Okay, back to reality...things are coming along. I finally got my bookshelf out of storage, but not my books. Until my VHS are gone, I don't have room for more books at the moment. I have half a dozen big boxes in storage, and not sure what I'm going to do with them. I will have to make a goal of one box a week to sort through until things are all resolved. I think my favorite part of living alone is that I don't have to worry about anyone but myself. I know the bills will get paid on time, and I don't have to wait on someone else to cover their share of the rent, or the utilities. It makes it so much easier to depend on someone dependable...me! Amy and Arthur are loaning me their kitchen table and chairs and will be bringing it by today! I've been eating over the sink, or at my desk, so it will be nice to be able to sit at a table. When I have guests over for dinner, they can sit on actual chairs and eat at a table, instead of covering my ottoman with a sheet and calling it a table.
The week has been very full. Between seeing my family on Monday, very interesting and intense classes at karate, friends coming over to help me in my decorating/organizing efforts, and boys working hard to complicate things in my life, I've realized many great blessings that fill my life currently. I am so grateful that I am able to recognize them and to be able to express my appreciation for them. I would not want to take too much for granted, especially, since I am really proficient at going 100 mph and forgetting to let people in my life know I appreciate them. I love my family and friends! They are important to me!
ej
Friday night we went to Rib Night in Los Gatos, and per usual, they were excellent. I didn't have any ribs, but everyone else enjoyed them. We had four "rookies" in our group this month and they all finished their ribs off with ease. There was a lot of excitement at rib night, as Heather won two of the raffle prizes, but allowed me to take a break from rubbing shoulders to collect one of the prizes. She won a camping chair and a set of pasta bowls. She donated the pasta bowls to my new apartment and me! So sweet of her! Now the greatest moment of the evening was the 50/50 raffle. In case you don't know what that is I will give a brief explanation. People buy a number of tickets, and after the money is collected, 50% goes to the Lodge for whatever "lodge improvement" project they are needing, and 50% goes to the ticket holder! I decided that after 7 years of attending rib night, I could spare ten bucks to help them make some renovations. Just before he read the winning ticket number aloud, I shouted out to my buddy on the stage, "Oh, oh! Mama needs a new car! Oh, yeah!" As he read the final digit of the winning ticket I shouted in disbelief, "Shut up!" Everyone, including my friends at the table started laughing at me! Dude! I totally won $125!!! It was so great! Of course, I put on a little show by doing a little victory dance as I collected my winnings. Even now, I am in a little bit of disbelief.
After Rib Night, Dave, Heather, and I (after much deliberation), decided to meet up with some people for karaoke at the Almaden Lounge. The bar scene is not really my cup of tea, but we went at any rate. Dave was being a baby about the whole thing, which kind of worked out well for me. I didn't really want to be there long, but was making the best of it. He finally gave me the "look" and I knew we were on our way out! Woo hoo! I knew he wanted to go see the new Harry Potter. He had made such a fuss about it earlier in the evening, so when he said, "I wonder if I could catch a midnight showing of Harry Potter? I'll watch it by myself!" I knew he was gonna go see it, and of course I said I'd go with him. He's such a baby sometimes! It was 2345 when he said that and we called around and found a midnight and midnight-thirty showing in Santa Clara. Of course, with his lead foot, we made it to the midnight showing and even were able to enjoy a few previews. I didn't get home until nearly 0300 and I was wiped out.
Saturday was extremely busy. I cooked an Indian dish for the Box Lunch activity for church, but ran late because of a few technical issues, one being the misplacement of my keys. I ended up going and having a chill time with the people that attended. Most of the day I kept busy doing things around the apartment and can't remember what I did in the evening, which means it obviously wasn't very memorable.
I love living in my apartment! It's been so great having my own place, have I already said that? I have been enjoying going through boxes and finding these I haven't seen in a few years! I have been spending a fair amount of time purging all the excess "junk" I have accumulated over the past few moves. When the moves are rushed, I find that I acquire much more junk than if I had packed systematically. This whole week has been a week of getting things done around the new homestead.
On Tuesday, my friend Michelle came by to help me come up with a new floor plan. I'm pretty left-brained and I wanted to have a little more style in my place, so I called in the Calvary. It's a little abstract, but I like it. I wouldn't have come up with that kind of layout (again, really left-brained), but it's going to work for now. I need to make or buy a beanbag chair or something like that. OOHHH! If those silly "Love Sacks" were less expensive, that would be a lovely addition to the studio apartment life. I think apartment complexes that feature Studio apartment living, should include a "Love Sack" in each dwelling. That way, each person when they move in gets to have one! Heh! Oh yeah!
Okay, back to reality...things are coming along. I finally got my bookshelf out of storage, but not my books. Until my VHS are gone, I don't have room for more books at the moment. I have half a dozen big boxes in storage, and not sure what I'm going to do with them. I will have to make a goal of one box a week to sort through until things are all resolved. I think my favorite part of living alone is that I don't have to worry about anyone but myself. I know the bills will get paid on time, and I don't have to wait on someone else to cover their share of the rent, or the utilities. It makes it so much easier to depend on someone dependable...me! Amy and Arthur are loaning me their kitchen table and chairs and will be bringing it by today! I've been eating over the sink, or at my desk, so it will be nice to be able to sit at a table. When I have guests over for dinner, they can sit on actual chairs and eat at a table, instead of covering my ottoman with a sheet and calling it a table.
The week has been very full. Between seeing my family on Monday, very interesting and intense classes at karate, friends coming over to help me in my decorating/organizing efforts, and boys working hard to complicate things in my life, I've realized many great blessings that fill my life currently. I am so grateful that I am able to recognize them and to be able to express my appreciation for them. I would not want to take too much for granted, especially, since I am really proficient at going 100 mph and forgetting to let people in my life know I appreciate them. I love my family and friends! They are important to me!
ej
20 June 2007
Closure...
You know, I've been moving for the last three weeks. It was probably one of the most difficult moves for me (and I've moved a lot). However, with all that was difficult, the sliver lining here, is the fact that I have my own place. No roommates. This is an exciting time for me, as far as living arrangements go. Right now, the unpacking is kicking my butt and having to downsize to accommodate my small but mighty studio has been brutal. I love that I have my own place, but I'm still so tired from the past few weeks.
Yesterday, was the first time I was able to talk to anyone about Vince going missing. I talked to Kelly, because she was the only one I felt comfortable talking to. It was tough, because when I first found out he was missing, I wasn't ready to talk about it, and then when I felt I needed to talk, we were at the beach for FHE with my ward, and I don't know anyone in my ward that I would feel comfortable talking to about it. It weighed me down considerably. On top of that, aside from maybe one person, no one knew him anyway. I also "talked" to Amy for a few minutes. They are on vacation, and I know Arthur is really bummed. I had to ask Amy to give him a hug from me.
I finally was feeling closure on the move from the Snow House, and now....we wait for closure with Vince. When the MV bishop called Scott...my heart stopped, as I waited to hear the latest. I can only pray that the Lord comforts his parents and family.
ej
Yesterday, was the first time I was able to talk to anyone about Vince going missing. I talked to Kelly, because she was the only one I felt comfortable talking to. It was tough, because when I first found out he was missing, I wasn't ready to talk about it, and then when I felt I needed to talk, we were at the beach for FHE with my ward, and I don't know anyone in my ward that I would feel comfortable talking to about it. It weighed me down considerably. On top of that, aside from maybe one person, no one knew him anyway. I also "talked" to Amy for a few minutes. They are on vacation, and I know Arthur is really bummed. I had to ask Amy to give him a hug from me.
I finally was feeling closure on the move from the Snow House, and now....we wait for closure with Vince. When the MV bishop called Scott...my heart stopped, as I waited to hear the latest. I can only pray that the Lord comforts his parents and family.
ej
14 June 2007
It's interesting how every person falls into a different category. Let me explain. We all fall under different categories of various personality types. According to Meyers-Briggs, I am classified as an INTJ. This means I like to have a system, and that I ask the question "Why not?" when others are still asking "Why?" People ask me why I found and engaged in a new hobby, and don' t understand why I "do what I do." I realize that I am not the most conventional thinker, or do-er in normal society, so I have to work hard not to give others too much of a hard time. I have a t-shirt that probably describes the way I think, pretty well.
"I'll try to be nicer, if you try to be smarter."
This is very much the heart of all my troubles in relationships and the difficulties I face at work. I love my job. I enjoy what I do, and those I work with. Sometimes, the way others form "logical reasoning" on how to approach a project, really, really, really...yes one more, really frustrates me. In fact, this morning I was speaking with one of the partners at work and we were trying to come to an understanding on one of the technical drawings for a project we were working on. We went in circles on how to approach it, how we could have avoided it, how it could be handled in the future, etc. At one point of the conversation, he stopped and looked me in the eye and said, "We have completely different ways of thinking!" I nodded my head in agreement, then smiled.
He was absolutely right! I am a upper left brain thinker (way, way, way upper left), and he is more on the lower right (this is strictly my own evaluation). We clash as thinkers and in the way we like to get things done. I think he is inefficient and "scatter" brained, he thinks I'm too organized and analytical. I think that he would get more done by doing it, rather than talking about it in their daily sales meeting. That's just me! Sometimes, I struggle to remember that everyone thinks differently, and that it makes "sense" to them. I have a low tolerance for things that don't make sense to me. Something I am aware of and work on everyday.
Perhaps the most fundamental problem, however, is that INTJs really want people to make sense. (cited from http://typelogic.com/intj.html )
If you're interested, take the online personality test: http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp
ej
07 June 2007
Hello, Land of the Unknown
Sometimes, I wonder why we blog??? For me, it is a way to write my thoughts and not care whether someone reads them or not. I do enjoy comments, but I enjoy writing for myself. Sometimes, what I write inspires me to want to be better. Seeing my feelings on the page makes me see clearly and without clouded emotion about things that are going on in my mind. When I read back upon what I have written I see pieces come together, or see how emotion kept my mind from seeing the solution, or the problem.
When I was younger, I used to write so many stories about faraway lands, or historical places that I wanted to visit, and the adventures I had while there. It seems that same type of imagination I had when I was a child has faded, but my desire to write has not. Hopefully, I will begin to write more often, and tap into the deep place in my mind and heart!
ej
When I was younger, I used to write so many stories about faraway lands, or historical places that I wanted to visit, and the adventures I had while there. It seems that same type of imagination I had when I was a child has faded, but my desire to write has not. Hopefully, I will begin to write more often, and tap into the deep place in my mind and heart!
ej
06 December 2005
Whew!
Here I am! After a long year of countless hours training, and studying, and doing my best to manage work, massage, karate, and time with friends, I have achieved my goal of earning and receiving my 1st Degree Black Belt in Taekwondo. We began testing at 0900 and finished right around 1200. We were expected to complete a physical fitness test (2 mins push-ups, 2 mins sit-ups, and 1 mile run), as well as perform all the curriculum learned for the current cycle. I must say, the karate part was the easy part. I struggled on the run a little bit, but I finished. I had a rough time training last week as I had a migraine for 3 days straight, but I did my best to prepare regardless. There are a great group of people at my school, and they are all very supportive!
My Uncle Wes, Aunt Louise, and Aunt Miriam made it to my test! I was so pleased! Brooks came and picked Annette and I up for the test, and Melanie met us there. After the test was over, Tiffany, Derrick, and Anna had also showed up! It was so awesome! I have an amazing group of friends! They are my family away from home, so, I feel very blessed that I have so many people that care about me in my life. Heavenly Father has really put people in my life that have taught me about charity, and humility. Scott counseled me to choose a new ward by thinking about how I can help serve the people in it, rather than how they can serve me. It had a profound affect on me and I realized that going back to the Almaden III ward was where I was supposed to go, even though, I would rather go to a family ward. To quote President John F. Kennedy, "Ask not what your country can do for you, but what you can do for your country." Words to live by, whether it be for your neighbor, your workplace, church, or community.
Tiffany and Brooks both were able to attend the Gala on Saturday night, where I received my belt at a candle ceremony. I was so excited to have accomplished my goal. I set a goal to be black belt by the end of the year, and I achieved it! It was an incredible feeling. Now, on to the next goal! Great timing, as it is the end of the year, and time to reflect and start new goals for the new year! Oh, and for future reference, when you are tired and going to see a movie and have ice cream, watch the movie first, then have the ice cream. We fell asleep during the movie, so now we have to wait until it comes out on DVD to see it again. LOL! The funniest part of the whole affair, is that this is the second time I've gone to see it, and fell asleep the first time as well!
Church was great! I went to the Almaden II ward Relief Society with Nancy! She was like a proud mama when they asked about any good news to report or share! She told everyone that I received my black belt! I was a little embarrassed, but it was awesome! She is so cute!
erika j
My Uncle Wes, Aunt Louise, and Aunt Miriam made it to my test! I was so pleased! Brooks came and picked Annette and I up for the test, and Melanie met us there. After the test was over, Tiffany, Derrick, and Anna had also showed up! It was so awesome! I have an amazing group of friends! They are my family away from home, so, I feel very blessed that I have so many people that care about me in my life. Heavenly Father has really put people in my life that have taught me about charity, and humility. Scott counseled me to choose a new ward by thinking about how I can help serve the people in it, rather than how they can serve me. It had a profound affect on me and I realized that going back to the Almaden III ward was where I was supposed to go, even though, I would rather go to a family ward. To quote President John F. Kennedy, "Ask not what your country can do for you, but what you can do for your country." Words to live by, whether it be for your neighbor, your workplace, church, or community.
Tiffany and Brooks both were able to attend the Gala on Saturday night, where I received my belt at a candle ceremony. I was so excited to have accomplished my goal. I set a goal to be black belt by the end of the year, and I achieved it! It was an incredible feeling. Now, on to the next goal! Great timing, as it is the end of the year, and time to reflect and start new goals for the new year! Oh, and for future reference, when you are tired and going to see a movie and have ice cream, watch the movie first, then have the ice cream. We fell asleep during the movie, so now we have to wait until it comes out on DVD to see it again. LOL! The funniest part of the whole affair, is that this is the second time I've gone to see it, and fell asleep the first time as well!
Church was great! I went to the Almaden II ward Relief Society with Nancy! She was like a proud mama when they asked about any good news to report or share! She told everyone that I received my black belt! I was a little embarrassed, but it was awesome! She is so cute!
erika j
10 November 2005
Lots of Work
Been working a lot still, but loving it! I was a little stressed out yesterday, so as soon as I got home I was ready to go to the gym and work out the frustration! Good thing Nettie got home at the exact same time, because I asked her if she wanted to go run and swim at the gym, and good thing she agreed. I needed to get worked out!
Now that I know I can run a mile without stopping, I am going to try and improve my time. The black belt test is not very far away, so I need to make sure I don't get off track! I am so excited! Aside from the headaches I have been doing well. The downside to the headaches, is that I have been missing a lot of karate! Doh! I have been training, just on my own when I am not feeling very sick. It's been a little frustrating, but it's looking up! I am looking forward to going to class tonight!
erika j
Now that I know I can run a mile without stopping, I am going to try and improve my time. The black belt test is not very far away, so I need to make sure I don't get off track! I am so excited! Aside from the headaches I have been doing well. The downside to the headaches, is that I have been missing a lot of karate! Doh! I have been training, just on my own when I am not feeling very sick. It's been a little frustrating, but it's looking up! I am looking forward to going to class tonight!
erika j
19 October 2005
Good Times
The most sweetest weekend! So, Friday night, I earned my black belt recommended and spent the remainder of the evening at Chevy's with a group of friends in celebration. I didn't stay out very late, as I had to get up early to go to a cheer competition my nieces are involved in. I did chat with Carrie in the parking lot after Mark dropped us off at our cars. It was really nice to talk to her one on one, and in person! She really was an amazing roommate! We chatted about what was going on and what are plans coming up were! She will be finishing school this semester and will be facing the world head on pretty soon! She's excited and scared all at the same time, and I can't say I blame her! :) Love that girl!
I woke up nice and early to get ready for the competition and for the Temple. I had talked to a few people Friday about hitching a ride with them to the Temple, so, I planned on meeting up with them after the competition. The girls were absolutely adorable! Anna Marie and Isabella are the most adorable little cheerleaders ever! We took a few pictures together and it was such a great feeling to be around them! I just loved how they would come up to me and give me a great big hug! I miss working with children and seeing all their smiling faces! Anna Marie is the youngest, and she did such a great job, as well as it being her first competition! She was all smiles!!!
Going to the Temple two times in three days was truly a remarkable experience. I have gone four times in one week before, and the experience was intense. I learn so much when I a attend the Temple, whether it be about what we are learning, or if it is something in my life that I am seeking answers or directions for. I talked with Nancy a lot on Thursday night and was able to share some of the insights with Michelle, Bishop, and even Brooks a little. I gained some wonderful insights from those I talked with.
This week has gone pretty quickly! I am hoping to get everything done on my list!
erika j
I woke up nice and early to get ready for the competition and for the Temple. I had talked to a few people Friday about hitching a ride with them to the Temple, so, I planned on meeting up with them after the competition. The girls were absolutely adorable! Anna Marie and Isabella are the most adorable little cheerleaders ever! We took a few pictures together and it was such a great feeling to be around them! I just loved how they would come up to me and give me a great big hug! I miss working with children and seeing all their smiling faces! Anna Marie is the youngest, and she did such a great job, as well as it being her first competition! She was all smiles!!!
Going to the Temple two times in three days was truly a remarkable experience. I have gone four times in one week before, and the experience was intense. I learn so much when I a attend the Temple, whether it be about what we are learning, or if it is something in my life that I am seeking answers or directions for. I talked with Nancy a lot on Thursday night and was able to share some of the insights with Michelle, Bishop, and even Brooks a little. I gained some wonderful insights from those I talked with.
This week has gone pretty quickly! I am hoping to get everything done on my list!
erika j
14 October 2005
Black Belt Whaaat???
So, yes! Tonight, I am testing with intent to promote to Black Belt Recommended, so I am really excited! Also, my beautiful neices will be competing in a cheer competition tomorrow! Woo hoo!
erika j
erika j
04 October 2005
I'm all moved! Errrrr...Mostly
Well, I moved all my big stuff that required Brett's and Brooks' truck on Wednesday, and the rest on Friday I did on my own with my car! Our apartment was cleared out and I was kind of bummed about it. It was so empty! There were a lot of great memories in that ol' apartment and I am going to miss my roomie, Carrie. Here is a young woman who thinks she is not very service oriented when really, she is an amazing example of service!
For the past year and one-half, she has helped me in many aspects of life. She has taught me about humility, compassion, and charity. Carrie doesn't even realize the impact she has made in my life, nor do I think she realizes her true potential! As much as I have teased her about how "well" she works with kids, she really is going to be an amazing wife and mother. I don't know how I would have made it through this last year without her around making sure I make it safely to my bed at night (I come home way too late)! I am going to miss her and wish her the best with her studies and in the search for an Eternal Companion, and that she has lots of kids!!! HEH!
My room is in shambles! I have boxes everywhere and clothes in piles from pulling them out of bags and boxes trying to find something to wear! I am going to spend some time on it later this week, if not this weekend for sure! I do have a trail from my door to my bed, so that is the important thing! I am excited to be living in a house of girls, as it is a new experience for me on many levels. I am hoping to save some money living there, but we will have to see how the drive goes! It's an easy drive to work and to the gym, but karate is a bit away. It should be fine though! I am planning on getting into awesome shape for my black belt test in December! I have been working on it, but I am comitted to maintaining and acheiving my goal of physical fitness!
erika j
For the past year and one-half, she has helped me in many aspects of life. She has taught me about humility, compassion, and charity. Carrie doesn't even realize the impact she has made in my life, nor do I think she realizes her true potential! As much as I have teased her about how "well" she works with kids, she really is going to be an amazing wife and mother. I don't know how I would have made it through this last year without her around making sure I make it safely to my bed at night (I come home way too late)! I am going to miss her and wish her the best with her studies and in the search for an Eternal Companion, and that she has lots of kids!!! HEH!
My room is in shambles! I have boxes everywhere and clothes in piles from pulling them out of bags and boxes trying to find something to wear! I am going to spend some time on it later this week, if not this weekend for sure! I do have a trail from my door to my bed, so that is the important thing! I am excited to be living in a house of girls, as it is a new experience for me on many levels. I am hoping to save some money living there, but we will have to see how the drive goes! It's an easy drive to work and to the gym, but karate is a bit away. It should be fine though! I am planning on getting into awesome shape for my black belt test in December! I have been working on it, but I am comitted to maintaining and acheiving my goal of physical fitness!
erika j
24 September 2005
Cost of Living
Another week in paradise! No one said paradise was going to be cheap cost of living! I have been searching for an apartment and it has been really frustrating. Everything "in" my price range is either ghetto, or I don't "qualify." What does that mean at any rate? What do they care if I eat or not? Argh! I am feeling a little stressed, I guess, but I am not going to let it get me down! I love living in San Jose, especially south San Jose (Branham, Almaden areas). Everything I do, aside from the easy drive downtown to work everyday, is on the south side of town. I attend church, train in martial arts, shop, wash my car, spend time with friends (when I make that time), and workout in the same vicinity. It's been a challenge living on the east side, even though I know it is only temporary! I looked at a complex yesterday and it wasn't too bad! They want $950 for a tiny 1 bedroom! I can pay that and live at Almaden Lake Village, I think. Maybe, I will have to revisit the AL Village and see if it is something I might want. They have a washer and dryer in the unit, so that would be really great!
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Well, I found a room to rent (credit check pending! I am not worried about the credit check, as I am in good standing. I have never had any problems getting rent on time! It's always on time! Not the exact situation I was looking for, nevertheless, it is something I have to do for the time being. I would rather rent a place on my own, but this will work until I find the right deal! I think my aunt and uncle rent a condo in the area, but I am not sure if it is vacant! If it were to come available and was in an affordable price range, I could either rent it myself, or get a roommate! I will have to look into it!
For now, I am moving into Gina's house!
erika j
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Well, I found a room to rent (credit check pending! I am not worried about the credit check, as I am in good standing. I have never had any problems getting rent on time! It's always on time! Not the exact situation I was looking for, nevertheless, it is something I have to do for the time being. I would rather rent a place on my own, but this will work until I find the right deal! I think my aunt and uncle rent a condo in the area, but I am not sure if it is vacant! If it were to come available and was in an affordable price range, I could either rent it myself, or get a roommate! I will have to look into it!
For now, I am moving into Gina's house!
erika j
18 September 2005
Church was great!
So, our Sunday school lesson was about marriage and the role it plays in Heavenly Father's plan for us. I really enjoyed all the comments and insights that were shared. They really helped me feel more at ease with my current status. I have set the bar fairly high, as far as expectations, standards, and values are concerned. I want an eternal commitment from a husband and I will offer the same in return. Bishop Greene talked about what is expected of us right now. Right now, we are expected to live in the world and not be of the world. Live a life to serve others and not ourselves, complete humility, as well as with charity. If we are living right and following the promptings of the Holy Spirit, we will be directed down the path our Heavenly Father wants us to be. We need to be faithful and understanding of things happening on His time frame, and not our own.
erika j
erika j
Las Vegas Trip
Well, it was a short week coming back from CR and even shorter leaving for Vegas on Friday morning. I must admit, I was a little frustrated Friday morning when I realized I had "misplaced" my brand new digital camera! It was 0430 and I was in a hurry to get to Brooks and Jordan for our big Vegas trip, when I couldn't find my camera. I had "misplaced" my portable DVD player earlier in the week, and didn't think to look for my camera. I felt a little frustrated with all that is going on, but still, my hopes were high for the weekend! What can be better than hanging out with two smart guys, watching fast cars go, and chillin' in the car to some good tunes? Not much, at least, being the righteous living LDS woman that I am. If I were married, there are a few things I might have thought about doing, for example, "asking" my husband to take me on a long motorcycle ride into a Nevada sunset, or go off-roading in the desert. Since I am single, feeding off the adrenalin of the races was good enough for me!
There were probably two highlights to my trip that I would like to make mention of right here and now. It might sound kind of silly, but truly were the highlights. The first, was on Saturday night after Brooks lost his race (he took a red light, but got to break his dial-in for kicks and giggles), we were all standing along the fence watching the stunt riders (motorcycles) go back and forth while there was some track work being done. After two days of trying to stay out of the boys' way as they worked on the truck, it seemed that for almost five minutes I existed again at Brooks came over to talk to me. Since I am capable of talking anyone's ear off, I tried hard to keep all questions and comments to a minimum, as Las Vegas is a long way away when you are driving, especially when you are pulling a trailer. So, the entire time I had been watching the racing I had many thoughts go through my head. I had my favorite cars and their reasons for being so, and was getting familiar with the names and different divisions of racing at the event Brooks came over and asked me if I was having a good time and if I had seen some fast cars. I told him I had and told him what my favorites were, etc. It was fun to just share some thoughts, especially because he would understand my reasons for liking certain cars and not others. It was fun just to share and for someone to even ask me. It seemed like I had worked so hard to keep out of the way, that I almost made myself disappear into my own little world. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy doing my own thing, but for a brief moment, it was nice to share.
My next favorite experience, was after we unloaded the trailer when we got back to San Jose and Brooks told me he was going to take the truck out for a spin, and that I was going to get the ride I have been waiting to get! Let me just say, and to quote my darling, Jordan, Brooks' truck "is not slow." Brooks told me I was going to have a "perma-smile," and let me tell you, I did! Just thinking about it, puts a smile on my face! = ) WOW! We raced up and down Tully and when we were done, my hands were shaking from the adrenaline! It was great! I was ready to go faster, and I am not even sure what would happen if we had, because it was so great! "I'm not scared!" I was telling Anna and Amber about it later on that evening, and Anna said that when he took her for a ride in the Viper, she was yelling at him to slow down. Are you kidding me? The Viper's nothing compared the the 'Yota! It's all about G-Force baby!
I hope to find someone to marry that has many interests like I do, and isn't afraid to pursue new things as well! Watching the little kids in their mini-hot rods, made me excited for my kids someday! I can hardly wait to take a class on automotive Systems, whether it is official or independent! I want to learn all I can. It's absolutely fascinating, and the rush, wow, hard to explain. I get excited just watching, imagine if you were all up in it?
erika j
08 September 2005
Camp Ritchie
Camp Ritchie was the best ever! I had a lot of "firsts" and learned so much! It was my first time really getting in the lake and being active in the water. It was my first time attempting to wake board and water ski and it was a great time! I didn't get up, but I sure did have fun doing the best I could! The food was great and the weather was absolutely perfect! Couldn't have asked for better weather!
I made goals for labor day weekend and it was to seek answers to questions, receive guidance and comfort, to enjoy nature, and of course, to have a good time with friends. I achieved all of these things. I kept my socializing to a minimum, however, it may have been misinterpreted as being sad, bored, or sulky. I say this, because people came up to me and asked me about my "condition."
I guess what some people don't understand about me, is I tend to have a very introverted side to me. I am pretty crazy, but there is more to me that just putting on a show! I like to look inside and figure things out on my own, then come out of my cocoon when I am ready and have things worked out. I have learned in the past few years that help is not far away, and that there is nothing wrong with asking for it. I still struggle, but I have learned to reach out a bit more!
I have been so happy these last few months about where I am in my life! It's been a long road back to this point and I have to share that whenever I can. You never know who might be able to benefit from the sharing of you life experiences. I talked to my sister, Belky, a few weeks ago I think and during our phone conversation she told me that she could hear a difference in my voice and in the way I was speaking. It was really awesome talking to her. She even updated me on how my baby sister was doing while out in Georgia. It was a really neat conversation.
I hope to express my thoughts with limpid cogency.
So, let us see...My first goal was to get answers to questions. I did my best to think about all the wonderful blessings in my life, as well as the great challenges! I love challenges! It's what drives me every single day of my life! Challenges and obstacles are what make us smarter, stronger, and yes - happier! What I have noticed in my life of singlehood, is that I am constantly at a crossroad of some sort. I understand that there will always be crossroads, it actually makes me excited about life, but being single, it's a constant thread in my life. When I was in college and was involved in a long term relationship, the challenges and choices were different. As much of what I did revolved around the "us" rather than the "me." Being single, I live for myself and pretty much do what I want to do, but I am constantly on the go with decisions that will not only affect me today, but also my future family as well.
The night before I left for CR (Camp Ritchie), I went over to Scott and Nancy's to borrow a sleeping bag and flashlight. While there, I enjoyed some cake and small talk. Apparently, Scott could tell I had something on my mind. As I made my way out the door, I solicited his services by requesting a priesthood blessing. We had a pretty nice chat and ended it with some amazing words of comfort and guidance! "Ask and ye shall receive." Something he said in the blessing was that he hoped the blessing would "pierce" me. As I walked to my car, I felt the power of the words he spoke and was mindful of his advice the whole weekend! The blessing was exactly what I needed!
I enjoyed the lake for the first time! I usually don't go down to the lake, as I have been a bit afraid to go into it. A couple reason, one, I never really knew how to swim, second, I am very inexperienced with outdoor nature sports, as our family wasn't really into that sort of thing growing up. It is one of those experiences I needed someone to hold my hand (literally) the first time in! A few weeks ago, I went to Arroyo Seco and did the swim/hike in the gorge and had a blast! I was ready for the lake after that whole experience! So, I must say I enjoyed nature a lot this weekend!
My favorite moment at CR was while I was in the lake waiting for the boat to come back around for me. I was floating with my feet up and I put my head back in the water. The water was amazing and we were the only boat on the lake (it was around 8 or so). I just felt an amazing sense of peace and was so relaxed. Yes, me relaxed! I was also humbled, just so you all know! I sometimes pride myself in my ability to pick up easily on different types of sports, but water sports are completely foreign to me. I couldn't get up! I almost got up a couple times, but just missed! I really enjoyed the challenge though! The fact that is was hard for me, made me like it all that much more!!!
I left Sunday night after watching "Mormons and Mobsters." I am usually the biggest critic about Mormon flicks, but I must say, this movie was a riot! I actually laughed a lot! I would definitely recommend it to people, which I don't usually do with those types of movies! At any rate, the weekend was great and had time on Monday to move over a few big items! Leaving for Vegas early tomorrow morning! Woo hoo!
erika j
I made goals for labor day weekend and it was to seek answers to questions, receive guidance and comfort, to enjoy nature, and of course, to have a good time with friends. I achieved all of these things. I kept my socializing to a minimum, however, it may have been misinterpreted as being sad, bored, or sulky. I say this, because people came up to me and asked me about my "condition."
I guess what some people don't understand about me, is I tend to have a very introverted side to me. I am pretty crazy, but there is more to me that just putting on a show! I like to look inside and figure things out on my own, then come out of my cocoon when I am ready and have things worked out. I have learned in the past few years that help is not far away, and that there is nothing wrong with asking for it. I still struggle, but I have learned to reach out a bit more!
I have been so happy these last few months about where I am in my life! It's been a long road back to this point and I have to share that whenever I can. You never know who might be able to benefit from the sharing of you life experiences. I talked to my sister, Belky, a few weeks ago I think and during our phone conversation she told me that she could hear a difference in my voice and in the way I was speaking. It was really awesome talking to her. She even updated me on how my baby sister was doing while out in Georgia. It was a really neat conversation.
I hope to express my thoughts with limpid cogency.
So, let us see...My first goal was to get answers to questions. I did my best to think about all the wonderful blessings in my life, as well as the great challenges! I love challenges! It's what drives me every single day of my life! Challenges and obstacles are what make us smarter, stronger, and yes - happier! What I have noticed in my life of singlehood, is that I am constantly at a crossroad of some sort. I understand that there will always be crossroads, it actually makes me excited about life, but being single, it's a constant thread in my life. When I was in college and was involved in a long term relationship, the challenges and choices were different. As much of what I did revolved around the "us" rather than the "me." Being single, I live for myself and pretty much do what I want to do, but I am constantly on the go with decisions that will not only affect me today, but also my future family as well.
The night before I left for CR (Camp Ritchie), I went over to Scott and Nancy's to borrow a sleeping bag and flashlight. While there, I enjoyed some cake and small talk. Apparently, Scott could tell I had something on my mind. As I made my way out the door, I solicited his services by requesting a priesthood blessing. We had a pretty nice chat and ended it with some amazing words of comfort and guidance! "Ask and ye shall receive." Something he said in the blessing was that he hoped the blessing would "pierce" me. As I walked to my car, I felt the power of the words he spoke and was mindful of his advice the whole weekend! The blessing was exactly what I needed!
I enjoyed the lake for the first time! I usually don't go down to the lake, as I have been a bit afraid to go into it. A couple reason, one, I never really knew how to swim, second, I am very inexperienced with outdoor nature sports, as our family wasn't really into that sort of thing growing up. It is one of those experiences I needed someone to hold my hand (literally) the first time in! A few weeks ago, I went to Arroyo Seco and did the swim/hike in the gorge and had a blast! I was ready for the lake after that whole experience! So, I must say I enjoyed nature a lot this weekend!
My favorite moment at CR was while I was in the lake waiting for the boat to come back around for me. I was floating with my feet up and I put my head back in the water. The water was amazing and we were the only boat on the lake (it was around 8 or so). I just felt an amazing sense of peace and was so relaxed. Yes, me relaxed! I was also humbled, just so you all know! I sometimes pride myself in my ability to pick up easily on different types of sports, but water sports are completely foreign to me. I couldn't get up! I almost got up a couple times, but just missed! I really enjoyed the challenge though! The fact that is was hard for me, made me like it all that much more!!!
I left Sunday night after watching "Mormons and Mobsters." I am usually the biggest critic about Mormon flicks, but I must say, this movie was a riot! I actually laughed a lot! I would definitely recommend it to people, which I don't usually do with those types of movies! At any rate, the weekend was great and had time on Monday to move over a few big items! Leaving for Vegas early tomorrow morning! Woo hoo!
erika j
01 September 2005
I'M MOVING!!!
I was recently comparing the writing and content of the blogs some of my friends are maintaining. I found that a blog for me is like an online journal of sorts, and that makes me happy! I am much faster typing on a keyboard than I am writing, which saves me time, as I would spend three times longer handwriting the exact same information, furthermore, by typing the entry allows me to go back and actually have something legible! For those of you who have had the opportunity to "read" or attempt to decipher my "hieroglyphics" (as scott likes to call it), this is no easy task!
At any rate, the point here is I choose to write about my life, perhaps to help me process the "goings on" of the days that pass, as well as express my emotions, thoughts, and dreams of the days to come. My friend Derrick is great at keeping up with current events and thinking of others! I try to think of others, etc., but to know avail. I am too self-absorbed and selfish right now to care a whole lot about others, even though I really try!
I will be moving at the end of the month! Woo hoo! Well, sort of woo hoo! Woo hoo for cheaper rent, as I am in need of some savings in that area, especially with gas being three dollars a gallon! Sadly, my roommate of nearly 2 years, and I will not be moving together. We both seek cheaper rent, so we must part ways!
It might be time to sell my car and get a motorcycle! Seriously! If I had the money right now I would buy a street bike! However, if I had the money, I would be able to afford the gas! LOL! It's a win, win situation! The move is a good one! I will be renting a room from my friend, Tricia, and it has been fun so far. I am not the best roommate as far as being home and participating in whatever is going on, and when I am home all I want to do is talk about me and my day! Again, never said I was good about thinking of others. I can be a good listener, I just need a clear "I need you to listen," then I am all good! I like the new place a lot. I am going to be storing my dirtbike there, so it works out really well. It is a little out of the area of town that I am used to, but that is okay! I have some learning to do!
The house is located right next to a Buddhist Temple, which is really cool. From the window in my room I can see the a good part of the Temple and it is kind of cool! I wonder if visitors are allowed to check it out and see what it is all about??? I will have to look in to it!
One of my favorite characteristics of the whole deal are the roosters that crow every morning! I love it! Reminds me of growing up in Orosi and staying at my grandma's house. We lived there for awhile and spent a lot of time there as kids. I remember the sound of the chickens in the backyard early every morning, along with all the other sounds of the early risers! It's a lot different from the sounds I hear today, but both situations produce different thoughts, memories, and emotions! There is something cool about the sounds of the morning! I guess I have always been an early riser, and whoever I marry will always have breakfast by the time he wakes up (unless he too, is an early riser, but most people are not).
My grandpa always had lots of chickens. He would set up the roosters in different areas of the yard and "work" them out. Then, every once in awhile, you would see him gather up his wood box-cages and head off in his old chevy truck! Hmmmm???? I wonder what he went off to do??? Heh! Ahhh....life in rural California! It's like paradise...errrr....but different! :)
erika j
At any rate, the point here is I choose to write about my life, perhaps to help me process the "goings on" of the days that pass, as well as express my emotions, thoughts, and dreams of the days to come. My friend Derrick is great at keeping up with current events and thinking of others! I try to think of others, etc., but to know avail. I am too self-absorbed and selfish right now to care a whole lot about others, even though I really try!
I will be moving at the end of the month! Woo hoo! Well, sort of woo hoo! Woo hoo for cheaper rent, as I am in need of some savings in that area, especially with gas being three dollars a gallon! Sadly, my roommate of nearly 2 years, and I will not be moving together. We both seek cheaper rent, so we must part ways!
It might be time to sell my car and get a motorcycle! Seriously! If I had the money right now I would buy a street bike! However, if I had the money, I would be able to afford the gas! LOL! It's a win, win situation! The move is a good one! I will be renting a room from my friend, Tricia, and it has been fun so far. I am not the best roommate as far as being home and participating in whatever is going on, and when I am home all I want to do is talk about me and my day! Again, never said I was good about thinking of others. I can be a good listener, I just need a clear "I need you to listen," then I am all good! I like the new place a lot. I am going to be storing my dirtbike there, so it works out really well. It is a little out of the area of town that I am used to, but that is okay! I have some learning to do!
The house is located right next to a Buddhist Temple, which is really cool. From the window in my room I can see the a good part of the Temple and it is kind of cool! I wonder if visitors are allowed to check it out and see what it is all about??? I will have to look in to it!
One of my favorite characteristics of the whole deal are the roosters that crow every morning! I love it! Reminds me of growing up in Orosi and staying at my grandma's house. We lived there for awhile and spent a lot of time there as kids. I remember the sound of the chickens in the backyard early every morning, along with all the other sounds of the early risers! It's a lot different from the sounds I hear today, but both situations produce different thoughts, memories, and emotions! There is something cool about the sounds of the morning! I guess I have always been an early riser, and whoever I marry will always have breakfast by the time he wakes up (unless he too, is an early riser, but most people are not).
My grandpa always had lots of chickens. He would set up the roosters in different areas of the yard and "work" them out. Then, every once in awhile, you would see him gather up his wood box-cages and head off in his old chevy truck! Hmmmm???? I wonder what he went off to do??? Heh! Ahhh....life in rural California! It's like paradise...errrr....but different! :)
erika j
23 August 2005
Sleepy
I have been running pretty hard these last weeks! Tonight, I am going to listen to my body and my emotions and hit the sack early! I feel like I have been running at a high RPM without being able to shift into the next gear, and that is not a good thing. I can't speed up, nor can I step it up and keep up the pace at a lower RPM, therefore, I need to take a moment to pause and enjoy what is going on around me! I am happy and sad all at the same time, and it is amazing to see the difference I feel as I have made the goal to be more diligent in my scripture study and in my personal religious observances.
erika j
erika j
18 August 2005
Life's Sweet Reminders
I love the reminders we get from time to time, telling us we are alive! Showing us in ways, both large and small, that Life is precious and fragile. I want to live my life to the fullest and learn all of the many histories and inventions of the world, from the Egyptian pyramids to the internal combustion engine. I appreciate the delicate reminder to slow down, especially when I don't realize I just might be going too fast to enjoy it all! For example, setting up the canopy at the racetrack and my friend has to tell me "One thing at a time, Erika!" when I didn't even realize I was trying to do two things at once (unfortunately, I think he was really frustrated with me that day, oops! :) It really struck a chord in me, about the way I do things sometimes! It was nice to have someone around make that clear to me, even in its small measure.
erika j
erika j
11 August 2005
I love the Temple!
I just got home from the Temple! It was great! I hadn't been to the Temple for quite some time, so it was nice to be able to go! I went with Nancy and Scott! I had a lot to think about and a lot to pray about, so taking time out to do some work and reflect on all that is happening in my life is a a good thing!
My mind is constantly racing about this and that...Lately, it seems, my mind has been lost in the clouds. Changes, changes, changes. A new ward, new hobbies, new interests, new schedules, new goals, as well as new commitments to my spiritual plan! I am so blessed!
I am going to Pismo beach to pick up my "new" dirtbike from my Pops! It is going to be so much fun! My friend, Tiff and I, will be driving down on Friday night, after our friend Jenny's bridal shower. I am really looking forward to riding!
My mind is constantly racing about this and that...Lately, it seems, my mind has been lost in the clouds. Changes, changes, changes. A new ward, new hobbies, new interests, new schedules, new goals, as well as new commitments to my spiritual plan! I am so blessed!
I am going to Pismo beach to pick up my "new" dirtbike from my Pops! It is going to be so much fun! My friend, Tiff and I, will be driving down on Friday night, after our friend Jenny's bridal shower. I am really looking forward to riding!
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